What I don’t admit out loud, I confess in my music. Subsequently when you listen to my music you will be listening to my thoughts. Although to me that seems completely obnoxious, somewhere along the line more and more people appeared to appreciate it. I do not write with any underlying intention. Most of what you will hear is unequivocal and I meant for it to be that way.
When I speak frequently fail to make sense to most people around me. Because of this I have conditioned myself to normality. Some would say that molding myself for the benefit of others is an egotistical decision. However, I view it as forming to the average standard.
In reality my mind is my own. That is something that will never change. I will only refine it in those essential moments.
I disgust immaturity. Which in a sense is very hypocritical, because choosing to disgust anything can be a form of immaturity. So I try to tolerate it, and on rare days… I even try to participate in it. Those that are close to me are accustomed to fighting my complicated mindset. They will sometimes succeed causing me to “let loose” for a short period of time.
In summary you could say it is challenging to act my age. I will even go as far as exposing that I envy those that have an easy-going demeanor.
I am fundamentally complex.